So here's what I need to do.
I need to pull myself together. Big time.
I'm all over the place right now, see.

My heart beats so fast (no matter how cliche that sounds) whenever our eyes meet, despite the fact that I've cursed him with every curse word there is in this world. He's what I see when there's nothing to see. And I just can't help asking myself whether I've let my one chance, and maybe last, slip like that.

And I've been feeling rather lost lately. I mean, really. Like literally misplaced. Like I don't belong. Sometimes I would find myself doing a particular thing in a particular place, and then I'd ask, what are you even doing here? or, what exactly are you doing this for? Anyway, there's just that feeling, you know, of wanting to go some place. Or, maybe what I'm really hoping for - some time.

So here's what I need to do.
I need to pull myself together. Like shit, Big time.