This time, this place,
misused, mistakes.
Too long, Too late.
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance,
just one breath,
just in case there's just one left.
'Cause you know,
that I love you,
I have loved you all along.
And I miss you,
been far away for far too long.
I keep dreaming,
you'll be with me and you'll never go.
I'd stop breathing if I don't see you anymore.

So far away,
been far away for far too long.
But you know I wanted, I wanted you to stay.
'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say
that ''I love you, I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long.
So keep breathing 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore.
Believe it,
hold on to me and never let me go.."




Boo! I missed Amaths paper.
When you start depending on drugs to fall asleep, what does that make you?
I don't want to take sleeping pills any more. I'm like effing 16years-old and I have to take pink little tablets to drown me into a half-dead phenomenon. No thank you.
Oh yeah, someone better take those pills and hide 'em away from me, 'coz heaven knows what use they'll be one day. Depression, sad case indeed.

Well, so much for this angsty prelude.
So it's 10:15 and still I'm here, not caring much about the fact that I need to get a full 8hrs sleep for my own goodness' sake. Crap. I'm going to die soon anyway. Nyahahaha. How soon is soon, really?

Blahblahblah. I talk too much, and all I hear is blahblahblah rantrantrant.
Brrooooooot!

Truth is, I cannot find any purpose. Any purpose at all, for anything.
Say, this post, what's my purpose in typing all this shit? Nobody cares anyway.
Think, going to school, what's the purpose? You learn, laugh, make friends, fail, excel. But what REALLY is the purpose of all that?
There's less to life than all those complications. Those complications, in fact, are just pigment of our own imaginative evolving mind. Just think, how happier life could have been if you need not get A1s for your exams; if you need not worry about your future because the future is no way different as the present. Think about all those geniuses, like Albert Einstein, Sir Isaac Newton, Da Vinci, they spent all their lives answering questions that are not meant to be questioned in the first place.
But as I was saying, there's less to life than that.
Live and let live. That says all. Go with the flow. Things happen for a reason. Whatever you do, whatever you say, they're all planned out like a mini-movie. And the results of your choices, they are meant to be that way too. Things happen for a reason.
So don't go around questioning people about things you don't understand. Because I'll tell you now, comrade,they're meant to be that way.




If you, if you could return
Dont let it burn, dont let it fade
Im sure Im not being rude
But its just your attitude
Its tearing me apart
Its ruining everything
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldnt be so confused
And I wouldnt feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And Im in so deep
You know Im such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger




I would rather be alone than be with someone who would rather not be with me.
gawd you made me hate you so much.
And the idea of being alone, parasiting on other people like someone unwanted is unbearable. But as I've said, I'd rather that than be a second choice. Geez I really hate you.
But not hate hate as in hate, just hate enough that I have to mind my own beeswax and you have to mind your own.

And please, please, don't call me babe.




Identity crisis is an agony.

I would want that to be the topic of my post today, but I'm so not in the mood for a long post. Next week is a short week. I'm looking forward to it.

The thing about screwing school for no reason is that: when you have to miss school, finally for a valid reason, you just can't, because you finally banged some sense into yourself and you're actually feeling guilty about screwing it.

I love the school's old system which is now the new system. Heeeee. I like.
And I love the people surrounding me. They're not really too much to mention, but I'm tired. And I'm lazy.

Have a fun weekend y'all.