-She's the one who said that, not me.
Say what?
-That you're stupid.
I'm stupid? I'm stupid???
-I mean, not you. I mean, I didn't...
Didn't what?
-Say that.
Say what?
-That.
That?
-Yeah. That.
Fine.
-I mean, you can't... feel.
Now you're the one who's stupid.
-What? What makes you say that?
'Coz you think I'm stupid. You actually think I can't feel? It's like you don't know me at all. How many years have we known each other?
-Seven? Six..
Seven?? It's been seven? God.
-It's six.
Fine. whatever.
-Yeah.
Anyway, I've got to go. My bill, you know. I'll see you...
-When?
December. November...
-Right. I'll wait.
You better.
-Okay, bye...
Okay. I'll hang up on 3.
-Okay. I miss you.
Bye.
-I miss you.
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beep.
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How many years? How many chances? How many mistakes? How many failures? Before you realise that the one you've been looking for... has been staring you right in the face?




You know who I love most?
My family and friends.
My grandma, who will always be my hero and role model.
My dad, who may not be perfect, but is trying his best to be. For us.
My mom, who may be weak, but at the same time strong, enduring everything. For us.
My brother, who I cannot live peacefully with. But who I can't possibly live without.
Hailey, who knows everything about me and who can see through me.
Pita, who's always there to fill the silence.

You're enemies are my enemies. Your sufferings are my laden.
I love you guys.




"See, Valentine's day and all the sweets and sweet-smelling things that come with it, are meant for girls like Nicole - with their cover-girl good looks, ladylike figures, and polished manners. This particular day of the year , heartthrobs are given a little something extra for the blessings they already have - they're given affirmation that they truly are, in fact, adored and endeared. One might already be worshipping the ground they walk on the rest of the year, but Valentine's Day is the time to go all out! So naturally, when someone doesn't go all out for you on this day when every guy serves up the works for some girl, you know on which side of the Plain Jane-Prom Queen divide you belong.
Anne was all too aware of it. 'This isn't even about Nicole because I love Nicole, but I really hate Valentine's. More than make the gorgeous girls feel good about themselves, it makes everyone else who doesn't quite make the cut feel bad! It's worse than reading a magazine, I swear. At least then, you can pretend those pretty girls are airbrushed and aren't real!' "




Tell me, what is it with dreams and illusions?
How can something that seems so concrete exist only metaphysically? And how can something so metaphysical affect one so concrete?

The thing is, for someone like me who is usually pragmatic and cynical, but who also constantly believes in a higher force - that everything happens for a reason - dreams are symbolic. There isn't really a comprehensive way for me to explain it. I guess, what I am saying is, dreams give us a vision of something that may have happened, but didn't. And they leave us wondering... what if?




This is what happens when you have free period Mother Tongue.

People speak and all that you hear
are rambles and murmurs
all but clear
They dance and wave
but what do you see?
If not visions of unreality
You run 'round in circles
but could no more feel
the lump in your heart
nor the soul on your heel
When will you stop
and settle for amends
and watch your reflection
and all thy pretends?




This weekend was so tiring. But I ain't complaining.

Finally seeing Ta and Jai again is soooo satisfying. Gawd I miss those two! They were here only for three days and I was with them for the most time except on the first day. What I love about them? You could just pick up where you left off with them without hesitation. Pita asked me if I was excited about seeing them, and I was like not really, 'coz I feel like they were here only last week. And it's true, nothing came and nothing could come between us. Ta and Jai are one of those few people who really rock my world, not for a particular reason but for every reason I could find. And I know we wouldn't see each other again for months on end, but I also know that it isn't the end at all. Like what they say - farewell, but not goodbye.

Seeing Ta and Jai again is also like... a flashback-backtrack kind of thing. It kind of allowed me to feel how it was like being spontaneous again, which (believe me) is far from everything in my life right now. Spontaneity. Who would even believe it's in my vocabulary? And so being with Ta and Jai, it really is the best break a work-freak could ever ask for.

So what now? After we had sent Ta and Jai to the airport, it was time for the musical night. I don't know exactly what's so great about it, but it was! I mean, it's just so nice seeing your friends performing and coming up to them after the performance and seeing them with that self-satisfied smile. It makes you satisfied too. After the concert, everyone was just shouting and going high and hugging each other. If it was a movie, it would be the final scene where the main song would play and the people who are watching would be teary-eyed without knowing exactly why.

And yes, there was that waving to strangers thing, and waving to not-so-strangers, too (Pita, you know this) haha! which was so great I don't even want to talk about it.

And as I had said last night, the perfect ending to the perfect weekend: Supper @Europe!!! Whatever more can you ask for??