You made me wait. Twice. But somehow, I don't feel like I deserve an apology. In fact, I owe you one. For ruining everything. You have no idea how small I feel right now. Here it is: I'm sorry.

Boo. Nevermind, there are a lot more out there anyway.


(oh but you're the one i want)




School is fun
like cotton-candy-fun fun
Baby make just one promise to me
DON'T EVER SKIP SCHOOL!
'Coz no matter how cotton-candy-y school may be,
It turns deep depressing oh so sad sad blue.
School ain't fun without you.




Look what you've done.




D (dreamily) : "I think I'm in love..."
F (sitting up in attention) : "Ohhh myyy gawwwd! With who?"
D (rubbing my stomach) : "Nah, maybe I'm just hungry."

So then Dionne 'the inspirational writer' was born, passing around this note that says:
Don't mistake hunger for falling in love.

Don't you sometimes feel that you flirt around just a bit too much? I do. But like what I always say, can't help it man. haha. I love school. Call me a nerd or a dork or a geek and add uber in front of it and I wouldn't give a damn fuck. (And there goes the F word...Ohhh no! Yeah right.)

(I'm eating rojak!!!!)

Back to context.
The truth is, I'm starting to fall. Or, ummm... I'm walking down that pathway towards the cliff where you start to fall. Maybe even further. I'm driving along the road to the pathway that leads to the cliff where you start to fall. Yes. But if he doesn't stop whatever it is he's doing, I'm bound to lose control soon.

Falling is frightening. Haha. That didn't come out of me.

Anyway, I better improve my english. Don't you think so?




When I was typing my previous post, I was thinking: hey, 5 days passed just like that. Now I think: hey, 10 days passed just like that. But what really is just like that?


Funny how easily I change my mind, or how easily I get bored of things. If my friend knew about this, he'd say 'what? think you're a princess ah?' And it's true. One moment I obsess about this, that and whatnot; the next moment I couldn't even be bothered to take a second glance. This is very unusual for me to say, but I guess that's how geminis could be. Predictably unpredictable.

But don't get me wrong. When I set my heart onto something, that's exactly it: I set my heart onto it. I guess what I'm trying to say is this: if I change my mind unhesitantly, that only means it's half-hearted choice. But enough about me and my unstable mind.

Sports day wasn't bad. AT ALL. Okay, so maybe no one wanted to clap except me and the gang; or maybe I was the only one who was high all the way, or the only one who kept getting raised and furrowed eyebrows, but you know what I say? If you keep thinking about what other people think of you, you will never - NOT EVER - experience full and pure happiness. Or should I call that ecstasy?

But I just ran out of things to say. I get like this when I eat too much.
See y'all.




I've got ten minutes to finish this post.
That's right. I'm ok now. The huge huge thing is gone, thankyouverymuch. I've got my old self back. The one who can detach herself from herself. The one who can be satisfied by the littlest things in her own world. Well, it's high time too. I've got no more time to lose. No. I can't afford to lose any more time. So here it is. I've let go of everything. It seems like my mind cannot focus on more than one thing. And that's where decision-making comes in handy. It's the books for now. I'll see you guys around.

I've got 3 minutes left.
I love you.




It's a one-way mirror
looking at you
standing, staring on the other side
And you can't see through, no.

It's a one-way mirror
and I can't look away
' long as you're there
I'm here to stay

Because you're so beautiful
so damn beautiful
And the girl you've set your eyes on
She'll never see this
One has to be on the other side

You're in the light
I'm in the dark
I only wish for this to remain
For me to stay and stare

Because you're so beautiful
just so damn beautiful
And the girl you've set your eyes on
She'll never see this
One has to be on the other side

The clock is ticking
Somewhere in the dark
I've got so many things
left undone

I've got someone waiting
Somewhere I don't know (and I don't care)
Maybe I should go
before the glass breaks
I should go
before everything gives way.

*

FYI: I am not emo.




I find that I'm blogging quite often again. Yeap. It's the only solace I have now.
So it was my first time jamming last night. I must say, producing good music with a group is so not as easy as it seems. But yeah, it takes practice. Just as every other thing does.

Just as getting used to feeling like a total bum whenever I'm with them. Or to feeling like the biggest loser for ever feeling like a total bum. hah. I didn't make sense there. But things do not really need to make sense for one to understand. Like what they say, it's the silence that does it.