I just have to blog. Because like all those other times, I just can't focus right now. There's this huge huge thing blocking my chest, making me sick to my stomach and rendering me incapable of doing what I am supposed to do. Usually, when this happens, I would pick up a paper and a pen and make a list of the likely factors that may be causing this huge huge thing. But I don't need to do that now, because I know what it is that's putting me on the edge of breaking down. Yes, I do. And it's all the more depressing because man, I am not in control.