Yesterday was a rocky day. The slightest memory of him was enough for me to get all teary-eyed and breathless. I never expected it to be this bad. It's almost like I'm going through a really bad break up with someone I've been for years. Almost like.

And so when my dad said he's going to Orchard to get his hair cut, I just grabbed the chance to get out of the house and come along, thinking that maybe the lights and the buildings and the oh-really-so-many people will somehow put my mind off him. But this proved useless because the people I saw were couples walking hand in hand, laughing, smiling, and happy. And few of them looked at me and I felt as if they knew what was going on and they were mocking and laughing and smiling and looking even happier.

So then I took a bus to Plaza Sing, which was also depressing because I don't want to take buses anymore, but I don't know why I did last night. Because you see, I really do get a lot of dreams about me sitting at the furthest back of the bus, the bus stopping at a bus stop and I see him walking down the aisle to sit next to me and hold my hand. And taking a bus now just becomes so unbearable I nearly cried last night then and there.

But then my dad called me and asked where I was. I said I was at PS. So then he followed me there and we met up for dinner. Oh I love these moments. Just my dad and I. We call it our 'date'. He said he wonders when I will stop dating him. I said I don't know. He laughed. I laughed. We ate Japanese. Oh I love Japanese food. Oh, actually before that he asked me to buy tickets to The Covenant. The movie was at 9:10, and we finished dinner like 8:30. So then we we have nothing better to do. Then my dad decided he wanted to play those gun-games where they shoot the screen. Boo. That's funny man. My dad didn't want to stop playing and I was like, the movie's about to start dad, come on, the kid next to you looks like he's dying to play. But then he still had like 2 more missions to go or something, so he offered the kid to play the remaining of it. Then the kid ran away. I think my dad scared him.

I was excited to watch the Covenant, but heck it was a disappointment. If the main character wasn't sooooo hooottt, I would definitely have fallen into sleep. Mediocre storyline. There were supposed to be four of them, but the story focused on Caleb. Mediocre ending. Tsk.

Oh but it doesn't matter. When the night ended, a quarter of my thoughts of him had drifted away. And before I fell asleep, I remember thinking, you can handle this.